Judith Currelly
 
"Bear"


Judith Currelly
April 15, 2004

The myth and mystery surrounding bears is rich and fascinating, from the ritual burials nearly 50,000 years ago to trophy hunting and teddy bears. So when I started this painting in my northern studio last summer, it was with a certain amount of fear and trepidation. How was I going to convey the respect and reverence I feel for this marvelous creature? Part way through the process I was helped by a bear. 

During the summer, whenever I need to get away - to get some distance from my painting or just spend a few peaceful days alone -- I go to the cabin (a tiny refuge 14 miles across the lake by boat or plane). On one of these visits last June I came back from a hike to find the door to the cabin pushed open and a huge still steaming pile of bear scat in the middle of the floor. It was a little unnerving but when a quick look around outside didn't reveal any actual bears, I relaxed and started to clean things up.

Surprisingly little was disturbed inside the cabin. I'd left a bowl of tomatoes on the table. It was still there, upright but empty. The quarter pound of butter left on the counter was also gone. The covered water bucket had been knocked over - probably because it was used as a stepping stool to reach the avocado on the windowsill. The bear had taken a bite out of the avocado but left the rest squished on the floor. My drawing portfolio, which I'd left open on the sleeping bench was now closed. I opened it up and there on a clean sheet of paper were two perfect front paw prints - one of which had squished avocado on it.

I thought how much fun it would have been to watch this little drama (from a safe distance). But I also felt very foolish for leaving the door unlatched and for not bringing a rifle or even bear spray. The wise thing to do at this point would have been to close things up securely and fly home. Instead I shouted a few "Hey bear, this is my place" noises and settled down with my book.

An hour later the bear was back. I made more loud noises and banged some pots and it ran off into the trees. Half an hour later back it came; this time materializing silently on the deck and pushing its nose against the window. I shooed it away again and took the old tin bathtub and stood it up on its flat end just outside the door to act as a shield accepting the fact that I might not be going out again that night. The next time there was a noise outside I opened the door ready to shout and bang on my shield and came face to face with the bear a meter away. I slammed the door, flipped over the the little bit of wood that secures it from the inside and banged in a couple of the largest nails I could find for good measure. This time the bear didn't leave. It just went a short distance up the outhouse trail and stood up and rubbed itself against a little polar tree. After pushing over the tree it stood looking at the cabin for a while and then started nibbling the bushes and turning over logs to look for grubs. Obviously the noisy arm-waving little creature in the cabin didn't pose much of a threat.

I spent a scary night huddled in the loft with a bottle of bleach and an axe listening to it padding around the cabin and wondering when it would come in the door or a window.

The next morning there was no sign of it but I felt sure it was just sleeping somewhere nearby. So I packed up the rest of my food, bolted the cabin door, told the bear (very loudly) that I was leaving and flew home.

Back in Atlin I had to face what could have happened. Friends reminded me of the unpredictability of bears, of the terrible incident at Liard Hot Springs a few years ago when two tourists were killed by a black bear while a dozen unarmed people watched in horror; of the outfitter's wife in Alberta who was picking berries, her rifle leaning against a tree nearby, when she was stalked and killed by a bear; of the two hikers in Kluane Park who did all the "right" things when they met a grizzly on the trail yet one of them was killed.The stories are endless and the dangers are real.

Spending time alone in wild places has always been an integral part of my life and my painting. Nature sustains my imagination and spirit. It also often forces me to look at some things I'd rather avoid. Such as -- will I take a rifle and be prepared to use it the next time I go to the cabin; am I willing to kill this " marvelous creature" I'm trying to paint; what exactly are these feelings of "respect and reverence"; do they extend to human life, my own included, as well as to bears and nature? I know that nature includes predation and death but I needed the bear to remind me. I went back to my painting with renewed energy, a new perspective and a dose of humility. From then on it painted itself (or the bear did).



"Bear" (2003)
Commission for Government House












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